Dig Deeper, Darling

Do you know that feeling, as if your pain, sadness and misery will never end? That whenever you healed one part of life, the next unresolved trauma is already knocking on your door? That all you kan do is dig deeper and deeper? Keep digging those nails deep into the soil of your soul, darling.…

Successful failure

(My personal) Definition of succes I Am grounded, in resonance with my purpose, through presence and love. When do I perceive myself as a success and when do I feel like something which just failed hard? Am I being successful? Or is my life simply a sequence of trial and error? These are questions that…

Get off my mountain

I dream of the crumbling of concepts, of set structures and pre-formatted relationships. A new reality takes form, one where the heart leads. We float and merge between our souls highest potential whilst being firmly planted in the ground. Our branches sway in the wind, spreading the seeds of life


My heart bleeds when I look at our world today. I see a lot of beauty and love, but also a lot, a lot of ravishing, destruction and division. Why are we backstabbing each other and constantly pointing fingers?

The shattering unfolds

Do you feel what I feel? Have you noticed the ongoing waves of change? All that is constant, is change. Do not take it personal, for this life does not revolve around you. Choose your words wisely, because assumptions are are easy to be made.

The world is my playground

Maybe there is a different way. We can make life as big and as small as we like, just as we can take life, and ourselves, very seriously. When I was younger, I thought that I had to help the world, help others, heal others. Along the way I realized it was a huge responsibility…

I know how it feels

I know how it feels to be fighting my feelings Resisting what there is Being contracted Hiding. I know how it feels to be completely naked Vulnerable to the bone Fully exposed Open. I know how scary it is to open up to another human being To be fully witnessed in my sorrow, anger and…

My Tantric Ways

I did the Tantric Ways Series with Gaia Ma in the beginning of 2019 in Guatemala. Before going into this retreat, I had this idea, about who I was supposed to be and how I should behave in this world. I realized how I was putting myself in a cage by following so many limiting…

Do you speak to me, like you speak to God?

I sat with an elderly man the other day. We talked. He was a man who read the bible every morning and prayed to Jesus. He was raised with religion and had a very different view on life than I do. At least, that was what I thought before we truly met. While talking we…

The intensity junkie

The intensity junkie. The one who thrives in chaos and indulges in extremities. The one person in the crowd who stands up when the impossible is being proposed. The one who jumps out of airplanes. The warrior. The free diver. The one who takes the last shot, the biggest piece, the greatest challenge. The worse…

Make peace with your past

There will be a moment in life where you look back and see how you have changed. If you really have lived, there will probably be many of these moments. These moments are precious, like little drops of honey showing you the transformation that you have gone through.

The phases of life

Time is a peculiar thing. It is always changing, creating, destroying. There is always an uncertainty in what is yet to come, yet it is inevitable that it will. It is precious, to look back at your choices, your partners, your life. It is astonishing. Humbling. Every single time.

Purification of the heart

Love is a work of art – it takes practice, practice and more practice. To be in love with a partner takes a lot of time, courage and work. Yet love goes even further. The love we feel for our friends, our parents, our children, ourselves – it all takes an effort, if you want…

Today is a good day to die

Love equals pain, and therefor it is in pain that I will exist. If you love me, you will hurt me and I love you for that. I thrive on pain. I feed on pain. I feast in pain. I love pain.

Alter Ego

She does not give a damn about where you are coming from, or where you are going. She does not give a damn about her past, nor does she worry about her future. She is here. She is present. She is everything I ever wanted to be, ever will be and never will get to…

I am here

My eyes are swollen. My cheeks are raw. Salt tears keep flowing. My chest is contracted. My heart is heavy. I can’t breathe. I can’t breathe! I feel ripped apart, completely broken. I love you. I love you so much that it hurts. I am broken into a thousand pieces, shattered on the floor

When the battle is over

To be in a relationship is beautiful. What is better than to share your love with the one you love? To be together with the one, share laughter and shed tears together, go on adventures or stay at home, cozy, under a warm fuzzy blanket of love – or a blanket of false promises?

Fuck for the sake of love

When was the last time you fucked someone just for the sake of fucking someone? Did she fall in love with you, or at least like you? Did you even give a fuck if she didn’t?

Choke on love

These walls. They won’t crumble. It took a lot of work to build them. And it takes a lot of work to break them down. I cried many tears. Shed a lot of layers. Went through a lot of pain. And still. I am protected

Control. Power. SURRENDER (part three)

What is it that you are looking for? What is it that you are trying to achieve? With extending your inner gaze outwards, what is it that you do not dare to face? Which shadows are waiting in your inner being – waiting to be seen, waiting to be witnessed? I would love to surrender…

Control. POWER. Surrender (part two)

What is power? Is it money? Is it sex? Control? Love? What makes a powerful person? And what can powerful people make of this world? An authority has power. An elder. A wise woman or a wise man. A narcissistic abusive partner. A manipulative bitch. To whom do you give your power away? Power is…

CONTROL. Power. Surrender (part one)

My beloved, I need you. You are mine. You are my obsession, I always think about you, I always want you in my life. I am using you, in every single way I can. You are my direction, my guidance, my support and my protection. I can’t live a single day without you. Without you,…

Know thy darkness

Do you know who you are in this life? Have you fully embodied the darkness within your being and allowed it into your life – or are you on the safe side, the good side, the side full of love and light? I do not trust people who claim that they have no darkness. When…

Fucking happy thoughts

Every word, every action, every thought – they all have their own vibration. Always stay aware of what thoughts you have, which words you use. Think happy thoughts and you will be happy. Right? Well, those happy thoughts sometimes are very hard to find. Life is good, most of the time. Sometimes, life is a…

Homesick. Sick of Home.

Do you remember how you used to feel as a little kid when you had to go to a sleepover somewhere, which was not home – while all you wanted was to be at home with your parents, your toys, your cats, your bed? Do you remember? How did it make you feel? Angry? Sad?…

A waste of human potential

We are the dreamers, the wanderers, the artists, the change-makers, the healers! We come to this earth to be open, to be free, to be love. We do not bend down to the system anymore, we are here to rise! Or… are we only pretending we are? The human species is amazing. We are capable…

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