Fucking happy thoughts

Every word, every action, every thought – they all have their own vibration. Always stay aware of what thoughts you have, which words you use. Think happy thoughts and you will be happy. Right? Well, those happy thoughts sometimes are very hard to find. Life is good, most of the time. Sometimes, life is a little bit less good. And sometimes, sometimes life completely sucks.

When everything goes wrong, every attempt of doing good fails, where are those happy thoughts that are supposed to make it all better? The solution seems easy: ‘Just think happy and you will become happy’. But honestly, when I am sad, angry or a complete failure at times, I do not want to think happy thoughts. I want to think bad things, blame everything, blame life. And I want to do this without taking responsibility, I do not want to acknowledge that my thoughts are actually enhancing the anger or sadness even more.

It is said you have an energy body. You are not only made out of flesh and bones, otherwise, how will you explain emotions, feelings, love, fear? It is not only your flesh that is angry, it is the other you. ‘They’ say this is your pain-body craving for more pain to sustain itself. If you do not feed it, it will fade away to the back and eventually even might disappear completely. That would mean all you have to do to be happy is thinking that you are happy.

Easy, right? I have tried this. I have had times in complete ecstasy, feeling on top of the world for days, weeks, even occasionally months. ‘Oh good, my pain body has shrunk this much, I won’t be caught up in it again.’ Wrong. It is still there, waiting, lingering, until you are not paying attention and life gives you shit. A little too much shit at once to handle, and of you go in the roller-coaster of disaster. Because that one unhappy thought could be the spark for your vampire pain-body to attack and take over.

Let us not become a victim and say that the pain-body is not taking you over. You take over your pain-body so that you will have this angry outlet, where you can feel what you are feeling. Claim your power. Yes, every dark cloud has a silver lining. But first, let us storm and thunder for a while to let go. Feeling unhappy resolves a lot of issues, crying releases a lot of sadness, anger clears out the crap.

If all you want to do is to bang your fist against every door, every wall and every pillow you see, bang it! Let the rage take over for a while, clean out that system of yours. Go mad, be mad, stay mad. For a little while. You are not the victim. You have chosen your time for anger. Now, when everything that had to be felt is felt, when everything that had to come out is gone, stop. Stop what you do. Stop what you think. Stop what you feel. Enough is enough.

Everything in life is a choice. You chose your reality. You deal with your pain. And you deal with your thoughts. Do not force any happiness to get in, but force the pain to stay out. Once it is out, it is out. It is not like the good, good is always good but bad should be controlled, or at least somewhat contained. Be empty, focus on good and good will eventually come. There is no space for love when you are filled with fear, so make sure you are completely open.

Stop thinking. Nothing good ever came from thinking. The best choices you make, are the once you make following your feelings. Does it feel good, like honestly, brutally good? Then that is the next step, that is the right choice. Don’t think about how you feel about it, feel how you feel about it. Come back into your core, back into your center. Spiral around the good, the positive, the purpose of being. Love what you do, love what you are. Time to let the fucking happy thoughts in.