If you don’t like what you are doing – don’t do it.
One of these simple questions in life: ‘What do you do for a living?’ For many a simple question with a simple answer. For me, not that simple, because I don’t know what to answer. ‘I breathe, sometimes that is enough’ is not an acceptable answer. ‘Nothing’ is not acceptable either, and not true, because I am doing things. It is just that I do not have a solid, properly outlined battle-plan like most people. For many people in this world, not having a career or at least a plan is weird, unacceptable. ‘In between jobs’ is somewhat acceptable, just like ‘On a sabbatical’ or ‘I am searching for a job’, or even just a simple ‘Burn-out’ will do. For me, all not true.
What is true? Well, I am doing my best to be alive and to live in a way that suites me best. I am doing my best to not let what I do define who I am. I am not looking for anything to define me, for that matter. I am living my life by breathing, dancing, loving, thinking, crying, travelling, feeling, making mistakes and learning. I think this is the way most of us do our life, but still… This question: what do you do? Why did I think of this question? Because at this moment I am writing about things, about life, and I do not have the answer. And then I realized I do not need the answer because it will not change me, or anything else for that matter.
What am I doing now? I am writing.
The way you become better, is not by thinking about doing something. You become better by doing. By trying. When you try something, chances are you will fail. And honestly, failure is merely an opportunity to learn and become a slightly better version if you ask me. Until you fail again, and learn again. It is an ongoing cycle. All we can do is our best.
Google knows things, Google knows words. I Googled ‘writer’ while writing this piece. The definition of writer, according to google is: a person who has written something or who writes in a particular way. I write. I guess I can call myself a writer now. What do I want to write about? Everything. I want to be able to share every piece I write which I feel is worth sharing. Everything covers it. I am going to write about everything, and perhaps sometimes nothing.
What do I do?
I am going for the biggest ‘YES’. I am not trying to convince anyone that what I do is the best thing to do, I am trying to keep it to what is best for me. My biggest yes at this moment is to follow my flow, to go down the path of healing, the path of truth. I am overcoming my fear of doing the ‘wrong thing’ – and I have started to do ‘my thing’.
What I do now, is that I trust. Trust that I know what to do. Trust that I do what I want to do.
What do you do?